Autumn Traditions

Autumn starts tomorrow…

The crisp air blowing inside through this window feels good…

September’s light is perfect for photoshoots, so this morning, my subjects and I went outside. Here’s a sneak peek:

Fall traditions, first day of autumn

falling leaves

We don’t really have any fall traditions besides decorating for fall; setting out pumpkins and garden mums. We go to the pumpkin patch of course. And every year I tell myself we’ll go apple picking, but we never do. We do, however, manage to go on some sort of family vacation during the fall. It typically works out that way, since we don’t go anywhere in the summer. As of now, there isn’t anything planned for the family, but I am going to Vegas.

Yep, instead of New York City, for our annual girls’/mommy trip tradition, I’m meeting up with my girl, Janet, in Vegas!

VEGAS Baby!I can’t say that I’m super-duper excited about the destination; casinos, gambling, unintelligent debauchery confined to a strip of sensory-overloaded space won’t float my bubble.

But, I’m amped up about lounging in the airport with good music and a good book–all by myself–uninterrupted. I love my life, I really do, but I need a trip like this every year (sometimes twice), to keep me balanced. I’ll come back refreshed and ready to tackle the season: Ollie’s 2nd birthday, our 7th anniversary, Ev’s birthday, Halloween, my 30th birthday (party!), and Thanksgiving.

I need all the freshening up I can get. Maybe this time I won’t cut my trip a day short (like I usually do), because I miss my kids, and I’ll channel all that “missing” into a trip to the apple orchard, finally.

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A little bit of parenting-book advice, A little more Intuition

It took all my patience not to shake Ellie today.

How to help fighting siblings

Olivia picked up Ellie’s abandoned, crumpled up, rainbow drawing from the breakfast table. Ellie idled in the adjacent seat, oblivious to Ollie’s impending infraction. They waited for breakfast.

Ellie recognized the piece of paper serving as Ollie’s foot scrubber, as the scribbled masterpiece she drew the day before. Ellie demanded it back.

“Ollie! No! That’s mine!” Ellie shrieked.

Ollie watched her with teasing eyes. The soles of her little feet kicked back and forth on the worn paper.

Ollie! No! I want that back! That’s my rainbow!” Ellie pleaded.

Ellie grabs for it.

Ollie’s short arms hold it out of reach

Ellie extents just enough to keep her from falling off her barstool and leaps for the paper. Failed again.

Olivia taunts her sister by shifting and keeping it out of reach. This struggle goes for seconds that felt like hours.

Ellie voice gets irritably high pitched, “Olivia, NOoo! Gimme that back! It’s miiiinne! It’s my rainbowww!”

At the stove, my back is turned to the squabble. God, It’s too early for this. I turned off the oatmeal and  started dicing the apples–slooowly. Maybe if I pretend to be invisible long enough Ellie will just take the raggedy piece of paper back already! A gray hair unfurled from a pore on my scalp. I could feel it.

I’m ghost-like. Listening. A fly on the table with big bulging eyes wagging left, then right, as the girls contend back and forth:

Ellie: “give me my rainbow baaack!”

Ollie: “uh-uhn.”

The tension in the room is as thick as a spoonful of peanut butter. The mommy-eye on the back of my neck could sense the twinkle in Ollie’s eye. The mischief. Her misguided delight.  I could see the frustration she extracted from her big sister exhilarated her. Her demeanor was sadistic, really.

“Ollie, see what you did!!! NO! Don’t! You’re ripping iit!”

Anger oozed out of Ellie’s pores and a little cloud of smoke began to form over the breakfast table. Ellie waited for me to intervene.

I didn’t step in. Two more gray hairs sprouted on my scalp.

Ellie knows not to hit her sister. Ev and I find that negotiation, skilled reasoning, and the occasional empty threat is enough to get things moving. Naturally, we’ve insisted that Ellie employ the same tactics. Kids should be free to express anger, but not hit each other. Well, that’s what all my parenting books say, anyway. Besides, Olivia is too little to be punched around.

“Ollieee, you’re mean!, you’re not my sissy anymore!” Ellie’s loud, uneven wails escape between grunts, and pants. She’s fuming, but restrains her aggression that seems to be bubbling to the surface. Olivia was oblivious.

Olivia calls for me to look at Ellie, “Mommy, Eyyie cwy-ying…Eyyie cwying…,” she pointed out.  At this point, I’m twitching. Trying not to whip my head around, and command Ellie to SNATCH the paper out of her little sister’s talons and silence the beast. Where’s your gutzpah?! Stick up for yourself, ELLIE!

Olivia’s keen eyes caught Ellie’s furious gaze, held it, then ripped the paper in half.

Hell’s gates opened up. Ellie lost it.

Ellie is wailing now. That deep rooted, pit-of-her-gut cry. The kind of cry that made me tear up a little too, on the insides. I felt for the kid. But her passiveness rattled my cage.

I know, I know, all you sane mothers out there would’ve intervened. Called it quits. Been the adult in the room. I’ll admit my reaction stems from a bit of history and a few skeletons. But I saw this as a learning moment for myself, and a teaching moment for Ellie.

First the history.

This very situation put me back in the mid 90s when my little brother would push my buttons and I would cry and mope because I hated how my little brother maliciously–and intentionally–(contrary to what my mother believed) did everything to frustrate me or get me in trouble. Yes, he was little and he knew he could get away with murder. Yet when I got angry or flicked his ears, or pinched him really hard–and he cried–I got the heat from mama bear.

Never mind that I was eight years older.

I was a sensitive spirit, and Hassan had baby muscles–and leg stilts–to reach the big red button on my forehead that read: “DO NOT PUSH!”

Ev isn’t sensitive, just non-confrontational 75% of the time. He told me about a time in middle school when his mom saw him getting being punked by another boy at the bus stop. She watched her son’s undignified situation unfold through their apartment kitchen window.

Evans restrained his fury (something he does annoyingly well) and ran home. His mom was at the front door. She told him–in Twi–to go back outside and not return until he whooped the bully’s butt. He did. And never got punked again.

If Rousseau was right about his philosophy on natural consequences then Ellie deserved  to give her sister natural ass whooping.

I waited for Ellie to calm down. She was at the front door finger painting hearts on the glass storm door with the snot globbed around her nose.

“Ellie? I can see you’re upset.”

“Yes, Ollie was being mean and she ripped my paper,” she confided. “It made me very angry.”

“I understand.” The script I crammed into my brain from Siblings Without Rivalry, a parenting book I returned to the library a few weeks ago, escaped my memory. I drew blanks.

Fuck it.

“Did crying get you the paper back?”  I asked

“No!” She wailed

“Did asking nicely get you your belonging back?”

“No. I kept saying ‘please’ and she wouldn’t give it to me.” Tears streamed down her haggard face.

“Then, Ellie, the next time you do all those things first and she doesn’t give it back. Take it.”

She quizzed my face. It was soft, but a little  tough around the edges.

“Okay, mommy,” she said with relief, and returned to her untouched breakfast.

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Vegan Scones and houseguests

I’m never eating another Panera Bread scone again!

Have u ever had a real scone? I mean one not glazed over with sugar glaze? Straight out of the oven homemade scones taste AMAZING! Even better when they’re vegan.

Vegan cinammon raisin scones

My 4 year old helped me make these cinnamon raisin scones for her (first ever!) guest who came over for a playdate, so presentation and perfect triangles were thrown to the dogs. My house smelled good though.

Ellie and her BFF from preschool, also named Elyse. Ellie’s first non-cousin playdate at our home. They had a blast!

My god! These were yummy! They are from my cherished Joy of Vegan Baking cook book.

yummy scones Ellie purred with delight and savoured each bite of her “scome.” Each bite elicited an adoring “mmm…” “Hunmm” it was funny to watch. Until she caught me capturing the moment. Then I got this:

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I’m keeping up with a challenge I gave myself to stay within budget for food and household items by cooking at home everyday. To say the least this challenge has motivated me to be creative, mindful, and less wasteful.

The best part is we haven’t been to a restaurant in two weeks. I’ve been intentional about each thing I buy, by sticking to the weekly menu I plan out in advance of grocery shopping for the week.

I make sure we eat or repurpose all leftovers as well.

I think I’ve saved about $200 in waste and unnecessary purchases in the last two weeks! Enough to afford myself a facial and a massage from my new favorite local day spa. #noJudgement lol!

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